Currently The I Heart Revolution: With Hearts as One By Hillsong United see related

Its long I know, just an update and writing about what has been going on. If you can’t read the whole thing just skip down to the last paragraph- its about school next year which I am pretty excited for! I’m coming to Michigan next Friday and can’t wait!

Change. Life gets boring without change, we complain daily about how we wish our lives were more exciting and not day after day doing the same things. Then God gives us something new, new friends, new places, new challenges and the what: more complaints. Really? Am I that bad? I wish things were different. I wish things used to be how they used to. I wish I still had a close relationship with this person, I wish I went here or stayed there… God I love you, you have given me so many things to be thankful about.

Its almost been 2 years since I made the move from Michigan to Washington. I wasn’t only faced with change of states, but change of friends, churches, schools, different frustrations and different problems that I have been faced with. Is that a bad thing? At first yes. Do you like change? That still can’t be answered. I liked the change that I could control that little things, new houses in the same city, a new haircut, you know the small things.  Big things…. God give me help through this ongoing journey.

I have gone through many changes in the past 2 years. 3 new schools, new church. The hard thing- trying to find friends here that were the exact same as before. Not Gods plan. Yes I have gone through many friend changes, I have gained a few and lost many. I promise we will be good friends forever… small promises you don’t keep.

You ever go somewhere or do something that you have such a high expectations for that it could never live up to what you thought? At first when I considered moving I was like yeah this will be a great experience for me and God, we will get so close and then because of that he will bless me with amazing friends like I had before. “For I know the plans I have for you” declares the Lord. I obviously didn’t know Gods plans nor should I have. A few friends here and there- then it hits you, more change. Do I really have to leave, again? Friends don’t have to be your age and at the exact stage of you in life. God has blessed me with 3 amazing people here in Washington. 3 incredible women that have helped me so much. Funny thing- the youngest is 27- a single mother of a beautiful 3 years old girl, Gracie. People teach you things all the time, even if you don’t realize it. Sure I had people before helping me in many situations but then it stopped- one year went by and nothing. Corse I could have called people back there and asked and I did. But there is something special when you realize that you were stressing that you had to call someone 3000 miles away then you find 3 amazing, mature people that want to be a close friend and help you in anyway possible. I hang out with those three so much. Not like a youth leader either- a true friend that I can just have fun with or talk to in difficult situations. Blessings come, you just might not realize them, because they are not the exact blessing you prayed for. Sometimes I think I know what I want and know what is best. God help me remember that you know.

For years I feel God has called me to reach out the hurting kids in this world. I love that he called me to do that, there is nothing I would like to do more. So, I felt like I knew Gods plan, I felt like I needed to get out there and start changing the world. One problem- I’m 16, there is school and well I can’t live in Los Angeles by myself being only 16 and all. So I was quite sad one night. Almost mad. I thought I knew what I was supposed to be doing but I genuinely felt like I was wasting my life. I didn’t need a text book to show me how to love kids, and I didn’t need a pop quiz to tell me how to feed the poor. God- I’m wasting my life why must I do this, I know what you want from me I don’t need this, all I need is to follow the plan you have for my life. He quietly said to me wait.

Basically slow down. I do have a future planned for you, but I also have a present.  Im not wasting my life- simply taking small steps to get to where God wants me to ultimately be learning on the way, maturing.

Now that we’ve played catch up a little bit about what going on with me right now, I wanted to tell you guys what going on for the future. This fall I will be attending Skagit Valley College. I am doing a program called running start. Basically it is high school combined with college. I only have 3 more high school credits to get before I graduate, so I will take those classes at the college while starting to take college courses. I will graduate high school as a senior at the college with all of the college graduates. Since I know what field I am going into I can also get my associates while doing it. So, by the time I graduate high school I will have my Associates Technical Arts Degree in Human Services with a Chemical Dependency Emphasis. I’ll be studying the psychology of alcohol and drugs and why people use them, also how it effects their children ( so when I work with the outreach kids I can understand and have some background) I will also be taking some counseling classes so that in the future I can rather go into psychology or counseling in the area of Drugs and alcohol.

Currently Listening 95/08 [CD/DVD] By Enrique Iglesias see related

I'm Finally in New Mexico! I flew in last night. And then Elise Flies in from Micigan tonight! I can't wait to see her. I sat next to a rather creepy person on my plane to Salt Lake City. But We won't go into that. Friday night before I left My family and I celebrated my birthday since it is on Wednesday and I will be here. We opened presents and all that jazz and then went to a Japeneese Steak House which was insanly amazing! I loved every second of it, except our chef was white... kinda took away the authenticity. haha he was good though. Beth Gets baptized to da and I'm going to take lots of pictures even though she doesn't want me to :). Bethany is also house sitting for her neighbor while they are away and we had to walk there dog last night. Her name was paddy(like my moms lol) and It was a bulldong not the short ones but like Chance on Homeward Bound! He drueled A ton and it was rather discusting!

That All for now, got to go get ready for church.

Peace